hyp⋅o⋅crite [hip-uh-krit] 
Show IPA –noun
ə| 1. | a person who pretends to have virtues, moral or religious beliefs, principles, etc., that he or she does not actually possess, esp. a person whose actions belie stated beliefs. |
| 2. | a person who feigns some desirable or publicly approved attitude, esp. one whose private life, opinions, or statements belie his or her public statements. |
...Unfortunately...im one of those people. But unlike many hypocritical people at least I can admit that I am one. I honestly feel everyone is a hypocrite with some things or at some points in there life, but everyone has a different place on the Hypocritical Scale. Im trying to lower myself on that scale and be better about things, because ive realized that alot of things hurt when it happens to me yet I know I do or have done those things to others.
I was left tonight....so now im alone with nothing to do but write in my blog about pointless and meaningless things. I could go on complaining about how I was left for a party with people not known or complained about and most likely alot of drugs and alcohol....but whats the point on that. I know ive left him and other people for other things before. Which is why thats just one thing im a hypocrite about....though I don't think I ever was with him and planned on being with him then all of a sudden got invited to hang out or go to a party and just left him alone.....whatever....well 9PM and all ive done is cry for almost 2 hours and write, when I know theres other things I could be doing...I hate knowing I have things to do but have no motivation or energy to do them.
But on another note, ive been sick lately. A heavy cold or allergies, whatever. Either way I don't care for it much. Its gotten better, atm im dealing with fluid in my brain though. So I either can't hear out of one ear and its so bad to the point that my head starts to pound or every time I move my jaw I can hear the fluid moving, which is also annoying. My cough is mostly gone, as well as my soar throat and post nasel drip, so I don't really have to blow my nose as much. Hope fully within the next day or two ill be back to my normal self.
I fucking hate fluid in my ears....
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