so I know I haven't posted in a while. Been kinda boring lately, not much to say. But now I do have something going on, serious in my book. To keep a long story short Bear went to the hospital this morning....turns out he has Crohn's disease. For those of you who don't know what it is its basically a disease associated with your gastrointestinal tract. Its hereditary and not curable but treatable with meds. Its pretty much a stomach sickness that causes alot of diarrhea and vomiting and pain in the abdomen. (If you want to know more just search it in wiki) But he needs a colonoscapy and to take pills. But he can't swallow pills so ive been trying to help him today with different methods. I can't with water and crushing them is horrible, tried it in applesauce and it was HORRIFIC! (I tried it myself) We're going to try to put it in solids tomorrow, like banana chunks.
Ive never seen him so unhappy before....its so hard to bare....I honestly wish I could have it to so I know how he feels...so he's not alone, thats how much I love this boy.
I feel so useless in this situation. I can't do anything to help...so therefore I can't make his stomach pain stop....and so he's still unhappy. I know that Crohn's isn't fatal, thankfully, and when he went to the hospital for abdominal pain thinking it was an apenasitus but it wasn't. So he didn't have to get his apendix removed. But still....Crohn's is awful until your on steady meds, which even then don't completly get rid of the symptoms.....I just hope that putting the pills in sold foods like a banana will work. He's going to need to take pills for the rest of his life to prevent it from getting worse. I won't just sit around and let nothing happen, because god knows his mom doesn't care.
Well besides that ive starting making my first fursuit head, only got some of the base done though since bears been sick. Ive also made my pattern for the squid-cat from Coraline im going to make and I have lots of good art ideas im making sure to write down so I don't forget. Especially my Coraline badge idea, they'll be complete with button eyes of your color and everything.
This week is also bears birthday, the 16th. *sighs*unfortunatly we were hoping for something better as in not getting Crohn's disease but hopefully he'll feel better by the weekend. I just hate that ill have to leave in less then a month....im just so affraid he wont be taken care of well. He even said today "...you just care about me more then I care about myself." *sighs* he deserves so much better then what he's gotten in life so far.....I just hope and wish so much that it will only get better. I know I make him happy but I want to give him a better life then he's had so far and ill do anything I can to do it.
....I just want my bear happy and healthy....I didn't think that was alot to ask for....but so far..I was wrong...U_U
